Home is Hope
Like all hopeless romantics, when I fell in love for the first time, I called that person my Home. I kept going back to him because in the end, we always return Home no matter where we are in this beautiful world and I wasn't one of those wanderers who didn't like staying at one place and never wanted to stay anywhere for long. I wanted to stay, but more than that, I needed him to stay so much I'd beg for it. But then, as heartbreak grasped all my broken edges and crumbled my heart more each day, I came across an interview of Najwa Zebian, a best-selling Author and an amazing woman.
After watching that interview, I realized everything Home is not.
1. Home does not abandon you or walk away.
2. Home does not disappear when it feels like and come into your life when you dont expect.
3. Home can never be another person.
Who has been stuck with you through every second of your Life? Who has stayed even if they hated it, or hated you? Who has seen you at your best and your worst and stayed even if they didn't love you? The answer is simple. You. You are the only person you can call Home.
Maybe your first love is like the school you grew up studying in. All your first experiences, the innocent version of You lives in their memory and yours. But you grow out of it one day. It isn't your forever.
And if you do have a chain of relationships or people you were or are attached to for a while, they're those luxurious hotel rooms , where you find comfort and beauty and love the adventure outside of it.
But then after a while, you prefer going back Home. Because you're like that tree who doesn't forget its roots even though it is tall enough to reach the sky. You're rooted, your only mistake would be to think you're rooted to anything else but yourself.
And if you're happily married to someone who loves you a lot and adores you and they're your last love. They're like that workplace, or your passion, something that makes you a better person and plays an important role in your development, your growth. You put effort in that relationship and it flourishes, if you don't nurture your relationship, it can wilt and die too.
But isn't it lovely that even when we do not love ourselves, even when we have given so much of ourself to someone else, we are still unable to let go of our self. Because Home is hope. Home is your safe place. You are your own hope.
